07 Oct 2015 – Trying to Hold On

It is terrible. I hurt. I don’t like typing my feelings because I feel that my “self” gets lost. But today, even my pen is too heavy. I want to cry but I don’t have enough tears. The heavy darkness is causing me to collapse into myself. The only thing holding me up is my anger. I hate that this is a part of my life.

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6 thoughts on “07 Oct 2015 – Trying to Hold On

    • I really appreciate your message. In these days, the feeling of loneliness is so powerful in spite of all contrary evidence. Such a simple reminder that someone else can understand my experience does so much in relieving the loneliness, if even for just a few moments for me to catch my breath.

      Your message is perfect. Good vibes from the inside out. Thank you

      -Marcus

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    • Thank you so much. There were times this week when everything was spinning so fast that I thought that I would surely fall off. Somehow (or because of what I have learned in my therapy), I managed to hold on to the end. Over the next days I will gather the pieces of my life and start putting thing back together again… take a deep breath… and keep moving forward.

      Thank you so much for your kindness (intentionally without a period because I can’t imagine an end to your kindness)

      -Marcus

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