#LoveMe Challenge Day 12: Share a Flaw
This topic makes me wonder if this project/challenge is for other people. People without mental illness. Seriously. I could fill several pages with a list of my flaws. Or, I am supposed to turn my perspective so that I’ll see that my illness is a gift of some type?
I think my biggest flaw is that I work too hard and tend to put the needs of the company before my personal needs. Oh… Wait… This is not an interview question.
I honestly don’t like to think of my illness as a flaw. It has certainly caused numerous problems for my life and for the lives of others who have had the misfortune of sharing life experiences with me at the wrong time. It is awful and I don’t like it, but am working very hard to learn how to manage it. I am hoping move beyond feelings of shame about who I am.
I really don’t like this topic. My internal voices are getting excited about getting the green light to beat me up and that makes me nervous. I thought that I could just start writing and that the idea would eventually flow out. Instead, I’m spinning my tires, getting nervous and uncomfortable.
I sense trouble on the horizon. I can’t do this one.