Lately I have been wrestling with feelings of sadness and anger. Unfortunately, I have had little experience with expressing either of the two. For my entire life, I have been taught to suppress these feelings at all costs. To let them come up is both uncomfortable and scary (even if it is healthy and good for me).
One afternoon I was so distressed and torn that I made these quick cards. I didn’t even take the time to add the extra effects that make the text glow in low light. But these are themes I have been struggling with. Who am I? What do I do? Who is on my side? How do I find my place (what do I do when I get there?)?
In the next 5 years I would like to return to teaching. But this time at a small college or university. Not an education behemoth like my last position. I’d like classes of 15-20 students instead of 50-60. I think this can be done. I just need to figure out how to build the road from here to there….and who will be allowed to come with me.